Happy Friday, y’all!
So, I’ve been meaning to write this blog for quite sometime. This week, I’ve had a lot of revelations and it feels like high time to express it through my blog.
As y’all know, I graduated from college this May. Of course, in August of your senior year, you start getting the age old question “So, what’s your plan?”. And, of course, as someone with a theatre degree, you get the famous follow-up question “What do you plan to do with that?”. After a year of answering those questions, it finally falls in your lap; the post-grad life.
All throughout my senior year, I thought about what it might be like. I pictured myself maybe working in an office somewhere, behind a desk, doing the whole 9-5 thing. Did I wanna do that? No. Not particularly. But I needed something to help me save up for what my “Master Plan” is.
My “Master Plan” is to move to Chicago, audition for The Second City Conservatory (hopefully be accepted), and work to make people laugh for a living. That absolutely still is my dream.
Over the past few months, I’ve watched some of my fellow graduates move to New York, get jobs across the country, and do other various things. It’s been so exciting to see where everyone has ended up and I can’t wait to see how far they go in this life. I can’t lie, though. When I first saw all of these things happening, I couldn’t help but be a little jealous. Here I was, sitting in my parents’ house, the house I’ve lived in for 14 years, not really doing anything that interesting.
Tiff and I had had a conversation a few weeks ago, where I gave her the advice to “make lemons out of lemonade”. (I got this advice from our Lord and Savior, Beyonce Knowles-Carter). It became one of those moments where I realized I needed to take my own advice.I needed to see the good in everything instead of seeing the bad.
I had to sit and count my blessings. I recently got promoted to a leadership position in a job that I love with people that I love. It hasn’t been easy, but being able to motivate others in a job that has pushed me to do my best is a really good feeling. No, it’s not a 9-5 job behind a desk, where I’m making tons of money. But it makes me happy. And I know that it’s where I’m supposed to be.
Yes, I’m living with my parents. But, I am extremely lucky to have a roof over my head. My parents can absolutely drive me insane, but I’m lucky that they’re letting me stay with them until I have enough money for my plan to follow through. I know they’re always gonna be my number 1 fan. I’m also still involved with theatre! I was recently cast in my first community theatre show and I couldn’t be more excited about it.
Another thing I’ve had a complex about is my social life. Of course, while in college, you make tons of friends that you know you’ll see somewhere down the line. Before I graduated, there were many people that I got close to. There seems to be this idea that once you graduate, you evaporate into thin air. Never to be seen or heard from again. Because Tiff is still in school currently, I still get the pleasure of seeing some of my favorite people that I got close to while in school. At first, I felt a lot of guilt about this. Here I was, a 22 year old hanging out with “college kids”. Of course, the lovely little voice in my head named Miss Anxiety kept telling me “Wow, Court. You need to get a life. You need to move on.” I finally realized that that isn’t true. I was the only one telling myself this. If other people wanna think it’s “sad” for me to hang out with people who are still going to my old school, that’s for them to think. It’s none of my business. Whether these people are still in school or not, it doesn’t matter. These people are my friends. They make me happy. I’m not gonna deny something that makes me happy because somebody else might think it’s weird.
I’ve been sitting for so long trying to figure out what my life is right now exactly.I finally stopped to realize that my life doesn’t need to put into any kind of category right now. Life is messy, it isn’t perfect. It’s not supposed to fit any kind of mold. That’s exactly what my life is right now. I have no idea what I’m doing, but I know I’m having fun. I’m really happy with where I am right now. I don’t need to explain it to anyone else. I’m not apologizing for anything. I’m right where I’m supposed to be. I’ve got people that care about me, a job that I love, and a roof over my head. For the first time in a long time, I’m really happy.
For those of you about to graduate, I hope you can take this blog to heart. Just take life one step at a time. Don’t force anything. You’ll be where you’re supposed to be.
All the love,