So, I’m in a bit of a rut at the moment. I live a very fortunate life. I work two jobs that are great. I get to sleep in a warm bed every night, under a roof with two very supportive parents. For some reason, though, I can’t help but feel a little, for lack of a better term, bored.

I’m starting to feel like I’m doing the same thing every single day with the same people. I love those people and I love my life, but I can’t help but feel like something is missing. I’m ready for some amazing thing to happen, but I have no idea what it might potentially be.

It’s also a big part of what has stopped me from writing. I sit down to write, and I find myself stopping. I feel like what I’m writing isn’t right. Something about it just makes me question everything I know to be true about myself. But, I’m starting to think that what I’ve been avoiding the most will help me get out of this rut. Creating.

I’ve felt an urge to create for a while now, but I haven’t felt like anything has really been worthy of creating. I’ve realized though that it doesn’t have to be “worthy”. What matters is if I’m proud of it.

I started this blog as my own personal journal and I think that’s just what I need to get it back to. Will it be the end of my rut? I don’t know, but it never hurts to get out there and try.


With love,

Court. ❤



Guess Who’s Back


Just kidding. I’m not Shane Dawson. But HELLO FRIENDS! It’s me, your friendly neighborhood ~blogger~. And by blogger I mean, occasional blogger.

But I’m happy to be BACK! And with a new look. I realized that my style has changed over the past couple years since I started this blog, so I decided to give the old gal a little ~aesthetic~ makeover to better suit my personality.

So a LOT has happened in the last few months since I last blogged, and I am thrilled to sit down and write all about it.

FIRST MAJOR THING: I got a brand new job. I left Charlotte Russe in April after two amazing years. It was sad to let go of a job that I loved so much, but it was time to let it go. I started working as a barista at Starbucks! That’s right, ya girl is serving you coffee with a smile every weekday morning. I will say, its one of the more difficult jobs I’ve had, but it’s actually incredibly rewarding. I may complain a lot about it, but I genuinely do love starting everyone’s day off with a smile and a grande white mocha. The company has a lot of great benefits and flexibility with scheduling, which is great for what will lead me to my next major thing…

YA GIRL GOT HER FIRST PROFESSIONAL ACTING GIG! I was hired to be a part of ShoWagon with Theatre Memphis. This job is something I’ve been seeking out since I graduated over a year ago. When I found out the the program was being reinstated, I was thrilled and absolutely had to audition. We’ll get started on all of our major projects this fall, but I am just so excited and honored to be chosen for this opportunity. It feels like a dream job.

Another really cool thing that happened was writing my very first play?? AND HAVING IT PERFORMED??? That was truly an insane experience. My dear friend Jamie and her sister Rae decided to start the first all-womyn’s theatre collective in Memphis, known as FEMMemphis. For their first major event, they chose to do a 48 hour play festival. Jamie approached me about the event and of course, I was stoked and would totally be down. When she asked me if I wanted to be a writer, I was a little wary. I had never written a play. All I had was this little blog here (Hiee!) and that was the closest I came to ever considering myself a writer. But in the end, I decided to take the plunge and it was well worth it. It was crazy terrifying, but I was proud of myself for simply putting my work out there. Was my very first play perfect? Absolutely not. It definitely has some kinks to be worked out, but like I said, the experience of writing something and having it read aloud was something I won’t forget,

A year ago, after having graduated college, I was really terrified of what I was gonna do. I knew I wanted to move to Chicago. I knew I wanted to save money. But honestly, I’ve had some amazing artistic opportunities right in my home of the 901. I just got to perform my favorite Shakespearean comedy, Much Ado About Nothing, in Arlington. The town where I first fell in love with theatre. I’ve had the chance to direct for kids at Grizz Prep, part of the Grizzlies Mentoring Program. I got to be in a MUSIC VIDEO!

I was extremely worried about not having many artistic opportunities after graduating. Boy, was I wrong. I am so happy with how much I’ve been embraced by this amazing community of artists. I am so proud and honored to be a part of the Memphis theatre community.

I’ve learned to focus on all of the wonderful things I do have, rather than sit and worry about the things I don’t have. You gotta seek out what makes you happy, fam. Depression can still get to me and bring me down, but sometimes you just gotta tell it to hit the door. It’ll leave when it wants to, but it will leave eventually.

Be appreciative for what you have now. You may not be altogether right now, and thats okay. Just keep blooming and growing, you beautiful human. You’re gonna be okay.

I’m gonna try to write at least one blog a week, so keep an eye out for ya girl’s site! And also, I often get stuck and get that mean old case of writer’s block. If you have any ideas for things you’d like me to write about, PLEASE let me know!


Thanks for reading, fam.

All the love,

Court. ❤


This is My Life (right now)

What is up everyone?? So after a very long hiatus, I am here for you with a new blog! There’s been a lot going on since the last time I wrote a blog and I just felt like sharing it with you guys.

The first major thing that happened is that I performed in my very first show in the Memphis theatre community! I had the absolute pleasure of performing in Theatre Memphis’ production of Sense and Sensibility. It was an absolutely wonderful experience. Through this process, I met some truly amazing people that I had some good laughs with and also some great conversation as well.

I auditioned for this show back in August, completely on a whim. I had been out of school for a few months. I hadn’t done a show since November and I really missed it. I was itching to get back on a stage. I saw the audition notice on Facebook and hesitated a bit at first. I’d auditioned for shows in the community in the past (back in high school) and had not felt super great about what I gave. I also really didn’t have much knowledge about the show itself. I told myself that I had far more experience than I did in the past and it was time for me to try and put this fancy degree that I had to use. Lo and behold, I ended up in the show! And I’m so extremely grateful that I did. I don’t know when the next show will be, but whatever it may be, I am ready for it!

Also, in the middle of dress rehearsals and performances for Sense and Sensibility,my family and I moved into a new house! AHH! The most fun part: having to move out in the span of two weeks. That’s right. While working almost 40 hours a week, being in rehearsals for a show, I was having to pack up to move out of the house I’d lived in since I was 4 years old in only TWO WEEKS. To say it was exhausting would be an understatement. Thankfully, I had an extremely understanding and supportive family/ set of roommates (Mom and Dad) that were able to get my things packed and ready to go while I wasn’t there. We’ve been here almost a month now and it’s actually been really nice. This new house is basically the same layout as my old one, just stretched out. I have a brand new room, new bed, new TV and new everything. It’s almost like having a loft to myself. Put a microwave and a mini fridge in there and I’m never coming out.

The nice part about this whole move is that we didn’t give up our old house to a complete stranger. My sister and my niece have taken our old house and they’ve truly made it their own. It’s really special to see them have their own little family in the house that we both grew up in.

Another really opportunity that’s come up for me lately has been teaching. Over the next few months, I’m gonna be the acting teacher for The Halloran Centre’s Interactive Field Trips with The Orpheum! It’s honestly been an awesome experience. The Orpheum has always been so gracious to me and given me some amazing opportunities. I’m incredibly grateful to them. Seeing kids gain a love for theatre in a place where I gained my love for theatre is truly an inspiring thing. I’ve also recently taken on a position as a Director-Mentor  with the Memphis Grizzlies Team Up Mentoring Program and Theatre Memphis! I go to Grizzlies Prep once a week and meet with a group of 7th graders and their mentors and help them develop a sketch that they will be performing at the end of their semester. It’s been an absolute blast. It feels good to provide them with that creative outlet and help them gain more confidence.

Recently, I decided to step down from my position as Supervisor at Charlotte Russe. I’m still with the company, but I plan on stepping back into the position of associate. I came to this decision after realizing that I was letting this job take a toll on my mental health. I found my anxiety getting worse with every time I came into work. I had to step back and realize that if this wasn’t healthy for me, I didn’t need to do it anymore. It was hard, but it was an instance where I had to think of myself first.

I used to have a picture of what my life looked like at this point. Almost a year out of college, I pictured myself working a 9-5 desk job, making a steady income, and living in my own place. Do I have that right now? No. And that’s okay. It’s good to plan for the future, but if you fixate on it too heavily, you’ll be unhappy with what you have now. It’s always important to remember the blessings you’ve been given right here and right now. I know, sometimes easier to fixate on what you don’t have rather than what you do have. But if you just take a minute out of every day to think of three things you’re grateful for, it can make you a happier person. Don’t forget to count your blessings, fam!

After this long hiatus, I’m hoping to start putting out a blog once a week. This is a nice outlet for me, and I hope someone can take something from it. So, until next week!

All the love, fam

Court. ❤




No More Shaming

Let me start out by saying this. I believe that all women are beautiful. Whether you are a size 0 or a size 24, I don’t believe there is a size that defines what a “real woman” is. Nobody should body shame anyone ever.

A few days ago, I read an article that popped up on my Facebook feed that boiled my blood. The title read “You Can Shame My Size Zero, But I Can’t Shame Your Size 16?” Obviously, this was click bait, but I read it just to see if there was any actual merit behind the title. There wasn’t.

Now, I understand that lately there’s been somewhat of an attack on thinner women. There have been claims saying that they aren’t “real women”. I don’t agree with this. I understand how that might be frustrating to hear.

But as a plus sized woman, I don’t wanna hear skinny women complain about being bullied for being skinny. Because let’s be real, IT DOESN’T HAPPEN.

Women under a size 4 have had representation in the media. They’re the models. They’re the ones you see on TV. I didn’t start seeing plus sized models even being recognized until I was about 16 years old. I grew up constantly hating myself for not looking like one of those girls. I started pushing myself into diets and different programs when I was 10 years old. I was called fat by boys I went to middle school with. I constantly wondered why I was never skinny.

Finally, here I am at the age of 22, able to accept myself as I am. A proud size 16. After years of being mean to myself and trying to be something that I wasn’t, I love my body the way it is. I still have my down days too. I am healthy. I am happy. I am what I am supposed to be.

That being said. For those skinny women being body shamed, I’m sorry that someone has made you feel this way. But that doesn’t give you any right whatsoever to turn right back around and do the same thing to someone bigger than you. Because they’ve had to go through a lot more than you can imagine.

I’m not writing this as a pity party for myself. I’m not writing this as a cry for sympathy. I’m writing this because I’m tired of everyone finding excuses to nitpick at each other. We’re all beautiful (Except Donald Trump.) Let’s all just stop body shaming each other. Deal?


All the love,

Court. ❤

This One’s for the LADIES!!

Hey y’all!

So, I’ve said this before, but let me just give you a disclaimer. I am not the most politically educated person. But I am a human being with a heart, a mind and sense of right and wrong. Not only that, I have a lot of feelings. And lately, all I’ve been feeling is a lot of anger.

It’s been hard to ignore that the past few days, being a woman in this country feels kinda crappy. Sorry Excuse for a Human, Donald Trump was in serious trouble after audio from 2005 was released that included him making some heinous comments about women. (Honestly, I can’t quite bring myself to write it in this article, but if you haven’t heard the story by now, go do some research.) Obviously, I was horrified after hearing these comments. I think what makes me angry is that this probably isn’t even the worst thing to come out of his mouth. We’ve seen him say awful things about Former Miss Universe, Alicia Michado. We’ve heard stories of him walking into the dressing room of Miss Teen USA, uninvited. He’s told female journalists that the only reason they have their job is because they are attractive.

Hearing these things infuriates me to a point that I am unable to describe. What kills me more than anything is that there are people out there who truly believe that this hateful, homophobic, racist, misogynistic, idiotic man is the best choice to lead our country. Even worse than that? There are still women who support him.

I’ve tried to fully understand the logic behind it, and I jusr can’t. The only thing they know how to do is say something negative about Hillary. When asked to defend Trump, they never really say anything positive about him. Seeing things like #Repealthe19th genuinely makes me sick.  To the women voting for him, I’m so sorry for all of the self-hatred that you carry. I genuinely feel sorry for you that you can’t see your own worth and realize that you should fight for your own rights. I’m sorry that you don’t wanna realize the power that you have. I pray one day that you see your worth.

This brings me to a major point.

YALL. WE HAVE THE FIRST FEMALE RUNNING FOR PRESIDENT. THIS IS SUCH A BIG DEAL. When I was a little girl, I would have never even dreamed that I could be president. It fills my heart with joy to see little girls today have the opportunity to know that they can do whatever they want to do. Including being President of these United States.

Obviously, as you can tell, this blog endorses Mrs. Hillary Rodham Clinton for President. She’s severely overqualified and the fact that people are even questioning the terrible second choice is a little insulting. Trump’s supporters only seem to carry the hatred of her around, rather than what’s so “great” about their candidate. As a Hillary supporter myself, I’m willing to see the flaws in her, but also acknowledge the great things she will go on to do for our country. Hillary sees this country is already great and knows how to make it even better. America will be a better place once Trump’s hateful rhetoric will be far away from the eyes and ears of this country.

While I’m thinking about it, let’s address a separate subject. Let’s talk about what the real definition of feminism is, shall we? 57968-10418588-feminist_definition_jpeg

That’s it. Does it say anything in there about burning bras? Growing out body hair? Man hating? NOPE. By this definition, if you are a human with a mind and a heart, you should be a feminist. So, I don’t wanna see anymore articles titled “I’m a Woman, but I’m not a Feminist and That’s Ok.” Glad we got that settled.

Like I said, I know it’s been kind of hard to be a woman in this country. But please don’t lose sight of how awesome it is to be a woman right now, and the fact that we are extremely close to having our first female president. We have the power to vote for representation in the white house. If you’re a lady reading this- Hey. You’re a badass. Please don’t forget how awesome you are. You carry a lot of power. You are just as good as anybody else. Don’t sell yourself short. Don’t ever feel less than you are.


All the love,

Court. ❤

Schoolin Life

Happy Friday, y’all!

So, I’ve been meaning to write this blog for quite sometime. This week, I’ve had a lot of revelations and it feels like high time to express it through my blog.

As y’all know, I graduated from college this May. Of course, in August of your senior year, you start getting the age old question “So, what’s your plan?”. And, of course, as someone with a theatre degree, you get the famous follow-up question “What do you plan to do with that?”. After a year of answering those questions, it finally falls in your lap; the post-grad life.

All throughout my senior year, I thought about what it might be like. I pictured myself maybe working in an office somewhere, behind a desk, doing the whole 9-5 thing. Did I wanna do that? No. Not particularly. But I needed something to help me save up for what my “Master Plan” is.

My “Master Plan” is to move to Chicago, audition for The Second City Conservatory (hopefully be accepted), and work to make people laugh for a living. That absolutely still is my dream.

Over the past few months, I’ve watched some of my fellow graduates move to New York, get jobs across the country, and do other various things. It’s been so exciting to see where everyone has ended up and I can’t wait to see how far they go in this life. I can’t lie, though. When I first saw all of these things happening, I couldn’t help but be a little jealous. Here I was, sitting in my parents’ house, the house I’ve lived in for 14 years, not really doing anything that interesting.

Tiff and I had had a conversation a few weeks ago, where I gave her the advice to “make lemons out of lemonade”. (I got this advice from our Lord and Savior, Beyonce Knowles-Carter). It became one of those moments where I realized I needed to take my own advice.I needed to see the good in everything instead of seeing the bad.

I had to sit and count my blessings. I recently got promoted to a leadership position in a job that I love with people that I love. It hasn’t been easy, but being able to motivate others in a job that has pushed me to do my best is a really good feeling. No, it’s not a 9-5 job behind a desk, where I’m making tons of money. But it makes me happy. And I know that it’s where I’m supposed to be.

Yes, I’m living with my parents. But, I am extremely lucky to have a roof over my head. My parents can absolutely drive me insane, but I’m lucky that they’re letting me stay with them until I have enough money for my plan to follow through. I know they’re always gonna be my number 1 fan. I’m also still involved with theatre! I was recently cast in my first community theatre show and I couldn’t be more excited about it.

Another thing I’ve had a complex about is my social life. Of course, while in college, you make tons of friends that you know you’ll see somewhere down the line. Before I graduated, there were many people that I got close to. There seems to be this idea that once you graduate, you evaporate into thin air. Never to be seen or heard from again. Because Tiff is still in school currently, I still get the pleasure of seeing some of my favorite people that I got close to while in school. At first, I felt a lot of guilt about this. Here I was, a 22 year old hanging out with “college kids”. Of course, the lovely little voice in my head named Miss Anxiety kept telling me “Wow, Court. You need to get a life. You need to move on.” I finally realized that that isn’t true. I was the only one telling myself this. If other people wanna think it’s “sad” for me to hang out with people who are still going to my old school, that’s for them to think. It’s none of my business. Whether these people are still in school or not, it doesn’t matter. These people are my friends. They make me happy. I’m not gonna deny something that makes me happy because somebody else might think it’s weird.

I’ve been sitting for so long trying to figure out what my life is right now exactly.I finally stopped to realize that my life doesn’t need to put into any kind of category right now. Life is messy, it isn’t perfect. It’s not supposed to fit any kind of mold. That’s exactly what my life is right now. I have no idea what I’m doing, but I know I’m having fun. I’m really happy with where I am right now. I don’t need to explain it to anyone else. I’m not apologizing for anything. I’m right where I’m supposed to be. I’ve got people that care about me, a job that I love, and a roof over my head. For the first time in a long time, I’m really happy.


For those of you about to graduate, I hope you can take this blog to heart. Just take life one step at a time. Don’t force anything. You’ll be where you’re supposed to be.

All the love,

Court. ❤

Happy Birthday, Blog!

Hey y’all!

So, thanks to Timehop, I learned that today is the one year anniversary of my blog!


I didn’t wanna let this milestone go unnoticed, so what’s the best way to celebrate? You guessed it, writing a little blog post!

One year ago, while on a 3 hour break between classes (#commuterstudent), after hearing my Mom saying that I should write a blog 1,001 times, I finally decided to go for it. I started this out as a journal for my final year of college. Essentially, I feel like that’s what it was.But it’s evolved into so much more than that. It’s my own personal sounding board for my ideas. I love this blog because it really isn’t about one particular thing. *cheesy alert* That’s why it’s so personal to me. It’s the best form of self-expression that I’ve found thus far.

Like this blog, I’m also a person comprised of many different parts. I like listening to One Direction and Drake,  I like wearing my 90s tattoo choker with everything, I like dogs, I like raunchy stand-up comedy, I like owning lipstick in 50 different colors, I like coffee with way too much sugar, I like eating steak and all in all I like lots of different things.


I’ve spent a lot of time trying to figure out what “category” I fit into. After a long soul search, I’ve finally realized that I don’t have to fit into any box. I am my own type. Everyone has their own unique brand. Once I realized this, I became a much happier person. I found myself not really comparing myself to others as much because of this. My blog is an embodiment of who I am. It doesn’t really fit into any particular box, but it’s a lot of fun. 🙂

In the past year, I’ve learned more about myself than I could have possibly imagined and I owe a lot of it to this blog. I was really scared thinking that no one would really care what I have to say. But one of the things that has kept me going back to this blog is the amount of positive response. Every like, every share, every “Hey, Courtney, i loved your blog post!” means more to me than you can even imagine. Like I said, this blog is for myself, but it’s here for others as well. Hearing people say that my blog has helped them some way warms my heart.

All in all, this blog has #blessed me in so many ways. If you are feeling like starting one yourself, GO FOR IT! Throw caution to the wind and type/write your heart away! It can really change you for the better.

All the love,

Court. ❤